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Winner 1: Chibi




[Unlocked at 100 participants] Winner 2: Chibi with background

[Unlocked at 200 participants] Winner 3: Animated Bust

[PASSED] 1. Improve myself as a person. Learn to be more mindful of others, and put more effort into relationships I have with people around me.

• I think I have grown more as a person in this regard. My way of thinking and how I respond in terms of conflict has definitely matured compared to how I was in the past. And as a result of that, I've managed to reduce the amount of conflict I experience with the people around me to very minimal amounts overall. Of course, there will always be gaps for improvement. But I've become a better person, and I'll keep striving to be better.
  

[???] 2. Be able to balance my life: Spend less time doing time wasters like mindlessly browsing or watching videos.

• I'm not sure how much I improved. I think I've tried to be more productive and balanced this year ... but procrastination will always be something I struggle with.

[???] 3. Maintain/improve my grades. Study hard to get a good score for my Med Exam.

• I don't know if I passed or failed yet. Also the latter half is no longer relevant ... though I did take the entrance exam and got a decent score, I've decided to no longer pursue it as I've come to the conclusion it's not a choice that will make me happy.

[PASSED] 4. Improve in my art by tackling new areas of weakness. 

• Hmm...I guess compared to the start of the year I've improved, but I don't know by how much...
• Jan vs Dec
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[PASSED] 5. Be more active on my other social media focuses (Twitter, Instagram, Pixiv)

• Yeah. I've totally ditched dA for twitter LOL. I got better at being active there, but I think I still need to post more art ywy

[PASSED] 6. Create a website.

• Errr I didn't make a personal FruitTartz website. But I did make a website for [Freit]. This counts, right?

[PASSED] 7. Complete a portion of one of my large art projects. 

• I mean...define completing a portion... :'D Though for sure, the progress I've made this year is so much more than all my previous years combined (which is basically nothing), so definitely a step forward.
  

[FAILED] 8. Complete one illustration artwork per month.

• Don't talk to me about this. Just. Don't. T_T

[FAILED] 9. Write more journal entries.

• For a moment there, I thought I was talking about dA journals and I was so confused because why would I want to write more dA journals? LOL. Then I realized it was IRL journals, which I still failed at anyway so GG.

• Well, I'm still alive, right?

2019 Revolution score: 6/10 I should have a resolution where I aim for a 8 minimum :'D

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2020 New Years Revolutions:

1. Pass all my exams, and graduate within the year.

2. Balance my life: allocate time appropriately, particularly between study and art. (Achieved if I can complete both 1 and 4)

3. Strive for true self confidence, particularly in academics and my profession.

4. Draw an illustrated bg piece every month.

5. Improve in my anatomy and overall illustration compositions.

6. Publish my webcomic.

7. Be more active online - post more consistently.

8. Stick to my schedules, and use them more.

9. Write more journal entries.

10. Learn to live a life of joy.

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Overall, the past year was relatively steady. My academics were okay for the most part; I got a new job; social relationships are fine; my art gradually improved, and I finally started on a webcomic project which, until 2019, were mere daydreams. This next year, my main focus is on graduating and seeing through with this webcomic project ... but most importantly, to be happy.

Academics has always, thoughout my life, been the cause of my misery and distress. It really doesn't help that my degree is unecessaily difficult. So, I've decided that even if I set graduation as a goal, I don't want hold these expectations upon myself like it's the law. After all, this will be my last degree, which I happen to already have a job for. Even if it takes me longer to get registered, it just means I'll come out learning more.

Really, all that truly matters underneath it all, is to be happy. What use is being miserable over the prospect of failures and mistakes, when it is out of fear that we won't gain that happiness? We are making ourselves unhappy in this neverending cycle of happiness pursuit. Honestly, I just want to be joyful and content with my life. I don't want to be living in self inflicted misery all the time ... my internal joy has been dead for so long already, and I want to finally give myself the chance to live. I think, that's the biggest lesson I learnt this year. It's the reason for my major life decisions this year. While a simple lesson, it's not something that's easy to really take to heart and live life by.

Negativity every now and then will be inevitable. That's a part of life. But when it dictates your life ... I don't think that's living. I want to prove that it's possible to live a life of joy, and I hope you all will try to do the same as well.

What are the lessons you've learnt this year? Feel free to include your new years resolutions as well, I'd love to see them May we all find joy in 2020!

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